A few weeks ago, I became really dissatisfied with my job. I’m not really sure what set it off, but it was probably another self-given guilt trip that I can’t be around every second for my children. I started looking at available jobs on my campus, and then at jobs available in my town (a small city of 250,000). While there are jobs available in my field both on and off campus, none of the positions available would be a move up, which I decided was really the core of this issue.
My job is a little unique in that there was no one before me in this position. However, I think it happens a lot in my field. Marketing has become one of those things that every business has to do. They NEED to be on social media, they NEED to have an eye-catching website, they NEED good printed materials, etc. Most business people do not have the desire to learn how to best do these things, so they hire someone to do it. Unless you work for a large business or corporation, there is most likely only 1-2 marketing and graphic design positions available. I am that person in my department on campus. There is not a position above me in my department that does marketing and design. There is only the director who signs off on my designs and approves the purchase orders. That director also manages the entire building and all it’s employees. I don’t want that job.
It is a little depressing to realize that there’s no where to go up from here.
So, what better to do than pump some new energy into my Etsy shop and drum up some additional income!?! I quickly listed 5 new listings, renewed some of my more popular custom designs and changed the name of my shop to reflect this new direction. I went to my Teams list on Etsy and posted links to my new items and announced the new name and even announced my Relaunch Party special. From that, I got several new item Favorites and a few Shop Favorites, which was a little exciting! I posted on my personal Facebook page about the special sale, which rendered 3 likes and 1 share (from my mom).
And with all that publicity… nothing happened.
I realized I’d jumped into this shop revitalization idea without even consulting anyone, most notably God and my husband, on their thoughts about this. Now I’ve had this shop for 5 years and I have always listed, unlisted and renewed items on the shop without consulting either of them… and maybe that’s the problem. I think 2013-2014 was my best year for sales, and I was also in the middle of graduate school, had my 2nd child, and still working full-time. It was too much to keep up the Etsy shop.
Maybe I don’t need to strive to make more money. Maybe I need to count my blessings instead. Again. And again, as a reminder. In talking with my mom about how I felt, I started listing out all the great perks of my job. Paid vacation and sick time, paid insurance, affordable health insurance for the kids, life insurance, retirement fund, good bosses, great coworkers, and on and on.
So… why was I feeling so unhappy?
Well… Three of my coworkers just got a promotion plus my boss just got a promotion as well (even though he’s still my boss) during a department reorganization. Although I am very happy for all four of them and truly believe these changes will head us in the right direction, Jealousy and Envy still found a way into my thoughts.
Ahem. That got uncomfortable. And miserable. My coworkers are my friends and I do very much like working with them. Their promotions are in no way a poor reflection on me or my work. The realization that there’s (still) no where to move up from here is also not a poor reflection on me or my work.
What if I only looked at me, and my position, and not at everyone else around me. Isn’t this the job I always said I wanted? Aren’t I already doing what I love? Haven’t I loved this job since Day 1?
Yes, yes, and yes. YES! I get to do SO many awesome things at this job, like going on the football field during halftime and taking photographs on the field for the crowning of Homecoming King & Queen! I also have front row and backstage access at any concert put on by my department, most recently Metro Station! I get inside the ropes at the school bonfire every year! My boss’s boss’s boss is the CFO for the university! I got my Master’s degree for FREE from this Tier 1 university! I have the honor of designing the artwork and marketing for some of Tech’s most loved traditions, like RaiderGate, Homecoming, and Arbor Day! I get to mentor students on forming great marketing ideas for their events!
I am useful.
I am talented.
I am a professional.
I am good right where I am!
“Now godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out.”
I Timothy 6:6-7 NKJV
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Have a blessed week!